GOD
God doesn't give you the people You want
He gives you the people you NEED
To help you to hurt you to leave you
To love you and to make you into
The person you were meant to be
Dear God
The lady reading this is beautiful classy and strong
And, I love her
Help her live her life to the fullest
Please promote her and cause her to excel
above her expectations
Help her shine in the darkest places where
it is impossible to love
Protect her at all times lift her up when she needs
you the most
And let her know when she walks with you
she will always be safe.
From my sweet friend,
Barbara Novelleno
I CLAIMED THIS ONE FOR MYSELF TODAY MY DEAR FRIEND. WOW. AS I SIT HERE ON THE SOFA WITH MY OLD BASKET OF THINGS THAT I NEED CLOSE TO ME, SEEMINGLY BROUGHT BACK TO THE TIMES WHEN PA HAD ME DOWW BEFORE FINDING MEDS THAT WOULD QUELL IT, AND THEN AGAIN A FEW YEARS LATER WHEN MS HAD ME WAITING ON THE SOFA, BASKET OF NECCESITIES CLOSE AT HAND, I ALWAYS CAME TO A PLACE WHERE I KNEW I HAD TO FOCUS ON WHAT I COULD DO RATHHER THAN WHAT I WISHED I COULD BE DOING. SO I'D GO TO MY SOUL. GO TO MY LORD. AND HE'D TELL ME TO LOVE MYSELF AND EMBRACE THE LESSONS TO BE TAUGHT RIGHT WHERE I AM. TWO DAYS AGO I PULLED OUT THE CANDLES AND INNCENCE AND FOUND MY FAVORITE INSPIRATIONAL MUSIC ONLINE AS WELL AS MY FAVORITE EMPOWERING WEBSITES AND BEGAN TO REFUEL. I AM TO LEARN TO LOVE THE PLACE THAT I AM IN BECAUSE IT'S PART OF MY JOURNEY....LEADING ME TO WHERE THE LORD WANTS ME....TEACHING ME SO I CAN SERVE HIM IN THE WAY HE SEES FIT FOR ME TO SERVE. I'M IN SCHOOL AND IT HAPPENS TO BE ON THE SOFA, OR IN DR'S WAITING ROOMS, OR BUSSES. ARY...I CANNOT POST ABOUT HOW BAD MY FEET AND HANDS ARE FROM THE SCALD INJURY I RECIEVED ALMOST 6 WEEKS AGO. I WAS TOLD BY MY NEURO FRIDAY THAT I NEEDED TO SEE A DERMATOLOGIST WHO SPECIALIZES IN BURNS... THAT MY MRI'S TAKEN 6 WEEKS APART LOOK GREAT....NO NEW LESIONS. SO THERE I AM GOOD. I AM IN REMMISSION. BUT HE BELIEVES THERE IS A CHANGE THAT THIS IS PERMANANENT NERVE DAMAGE. I WILL NEED WHEEL CHAIR. TO HAVE MS NOT GET ME DOWN AND THEN TO HAVE THIS TAKE MY FEET MAKES NO SENSE. I CANNOT POST TO ASK FOR PRAYER ON FACEBOOK OPENLY BECAUSE OF THE CUSTODY TRIAL. IF WORD LEAKS OUT THAT THIS MAY BE A PERMANENT INJURY, IT'S JUST ONE MORE THING TO HAVE MY X USE AGAINST ME. SO HERE, I READ FOR INSPIRATION AND COURAGE (AND I GOT THAT HERE...KNEW I WOULD) AND I ASK FOR PRAYER. MONDAY I'll BE TRYING TO GET INTO A PAIN CLINIC. THE SCALDS DID NOT GIVE ME THIS MUCH PAIN WHEN THE HOT WATER PIPE IN THE BATHROOM BURST. IT BURNED IT AND I DID NOT FEEL THE PAIN I SHOULD HAVE FELT NOW I GET THE PAIN. NOW I FEEL AS IF MY FEET ARE IMMERCED IN HOT WATER AND I CANNOT GET THEM OUT. A PIN PRICK TEST SHOWED NO FEELING IN MY FEET BUT TEHY ARE ON FIRE FROM WITHIN. I WILL NEED TO GO TO NYC (100 MILES AND MEDICAID WILL TRANSPORT IF I GET A REFERRAL) OR PERHAPS ALBANY (50 MILES NORTH). ONLINE TRYING TO FIND NEARBY BURN CENTERS. SEEMS LIKE SO FAR I'VE COME UP WITH ONE AT WESTCHESTER MEDICAL. I'M CALLING SHRINERS ON MONDAY AND SEE IF THEY HAVE ANY IDEAS OF WHO COULD TREAT ME. SEARCH ANGEL...SOUNDS SO MUCH MORE FITTING THAN "FASTEST GOOGLER IN THE WEST". LOL. THANK YOU FOR ALLOWING GOD'S SPIRIT TO FLOW THROUGH YOU IN YOUR POWERFUL WRITINGS. LOVE BETZ
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